While teaching, I learned.. :))

Well from now on its gonna be all about time-management. With the fasting month coming up, I am expecting it to be all the more challenging but I believe I am to the challenge.

In any case, I have been visiting the library quite frequently and I have become quite a fan of the non-fiction books which I borrow to gimme some inspiration for my practicum. They teach about handling fear, dealing with embarrassment and increasing self-confidence.

It came in handy during one of my sessions!!

I had a big mental block and in the middle of a self-talk class, totally ran out of anything to say. I desperately flipped through my notes.. but alas could not find anything to say. I had 6 pairs of eyes staring at me and the silence couldn't have been more awkward..

If this had been say 3 months back, the sheer embarassment of the situation would have eaten me up and I would not have been able to concentrate on work later at all..

But thankfully, it all turned out great as I managed to regained my composure and even used it as an example of how to change your negative self-talk during an embarrassing moment. From 'I can't believe I did that and I am gonna mess up from here' to 'Its ok, it happens even to the best.. you haven't committed any murder.. just laugh it off and get on with it.' Not to forget, I have amazing colleagues too!!

Hehe and guess what? I didn't spend a minute after mulling over it and even shared it with my other classes...

Wow.. there are never lack of opportunities to learn, are there?

busy busy busy

I doubt I have ever been busier... I have a session tomorrow with 2 of my colleagues who initially didn't wanna be part of my sessions. So yeah.. that's like cool. So it will be a cosy group of 2 for my intro session tomorrow.

What is more stress-inducing would be the self-talk session for some loud-mouthed and judgemental peers on Wednesday. I was a bundle of nerves when I did the intro with them. I will ensure that I try my hand at some relaxation-cum-stress mgt techniques before I stride into the class.

Anyhow, I like this quote by William James..

If you aspire for a trait, act like you already have it :-P

Nice ain't it?

Later...

The show continues...

The next 2 weeks are going to be very challenging for me... I have some some major stuff coming up at work and I have deadlines to meet for school stuff too. My practicum is underway and while it has been very exciting... it can be nerve-wrecking too. Like what Emily mentioned once, it is no mean feat to go about conducting a MST class when your own level of motivation is down the pits.

Well thats precisely how I felt like last Thursday. Thankfully, I was able to overcome my emotions and the session went without major hiccups...

I still think that my control over the class could be improved and I could brush up on my confidence level... I feel that one session of self-talk is not enough to cover all that I wanted. Well.. I would be needing to work on my schedule to try to squeeze in another...